help.

I DON'T WANT TO GO TO MATRICULATION.

Oh God. This is serious. I don't want to. I don't want to continue my studies. Not what you're expecting? Well, it's true. Just stop. PLEASE. I'm hurting. I honestly don't know what got into me. This weird laziness and procrastination. I'm not sure if that's what made me like this. I just don't want to. I'm going with it for the sake of life. I don't know, this is what people do, right? Finish high school then go to college then university then work and die. The norm. However I'm different. I have no idea why. I've been thinking about this since last year, even before SPM. I just think, I'd study, sit for SPM then get the results and done. WORK. But nooo, you have to continue your dang studies. WHY. WHYYYY. I'm just not that interested in doing so. Send me away, to PLKN. For two years. I don't mind it at all, really. No internet? Fine. Just send me there.

I'm sick and tired of thinking about all these. About life. This is probably my existential crisis (yeap I learnt this from Dan). Ok, this is from Wikipedia.

An existential crisis may result from:

~The sense of being alone and isolated in the world;

~A new-found grasp or appreciation of one's mortality;

~Believing that one's life has no purpose or external meaning;

~Searching for the meaning of life;

~Awareness of one's freedom and the consequences of accepting or rejecting that freedom;  

~An extremely pleasurable or hurtful experience that leaves one seeking meaning;

An existential crisis is often provoked by a significant event in the person's life — psychological trauma, marriage, separation, major loss, the death of a loved one, a life-threatening experience, a new love partner, psychoactive drug use, adult children leaving home, reaching a personally-significant age (turning 16, turning 40, etc.), etc.

Number one, three, four, five and six. Also, major loss, the death of a loved one. YEP. I know number three is just so wrong. Life DOES have a purpose actually. Do things to achieve awesomeness in the after-life. Yeah, I like to call it awesomeness. Though, here I am, still as blind as ever. See, this is one of the things that's been bothering me. I need to work on my faith. Pronto.

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CAN I BRAG ABOUT MYSELF??

Well, this is my blog so I can say whatever I want to. HAHAHA.

So my SPM results are 2A's, 5B's and 2C's. BAD for someone being in the second class. Really bad. Plus everyone was hoping I'd do better, probably 5A's or something... but you know what? I'm proud of my results. Mainly because I did it on my own. I went to school, I studied. I go online a lot, yet I still achieved this. Also, I didn't take any tuition at all. NO TUITION. NONE. While some other kids did take tuition but their results are almost the same as mine. I'm glad I saved money for David instead HAHA. ok bye this is all. I'm a bad person but who cares.

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HAYLOW. *Marcus Butler's voice*

This is weird. I have no idea what to write mwaaaaahahahaaaaaa. =_=

Here's a picture of my orange family during PLKN.

the middle one's called Limau Special BL7.

David's been away. 1 year, 1 month and 11 days passed. He's coming back soon, in 11 months time. I'm so excited. Can I be honest? Since he went away, I sort of have nothing to look forward too. It's like, the sun's not shining, the vibe around me just feels weird. I don't get that constant update about him like I used to. Random tweets, vlogs... they're not there.

"this is the first time, can I make it through, without you now, do the things I used to do."

But yeah, I guess I've been doing pretty alright. GAH I MISS HIM. He'll be back soon anyway hahah who knew a year have passed. By the way, I'm also setting a goal. I shall lose fats/weight by the time he gets back. :D I don't know how I'll do it, or if I'd struggle, but I will. Watch out, people. ngehehehe :p

What else... oh, I've been watching Youtube a lot and some pretty awesome British Youtubers. My favourite is definitely the Harries twins and Dan. Others are AmazingPhil, PointlessBlog, Caspar Lee, MarcusButlerTV, Sam Pepper, Zoella, etc... I know I'm late on this, don't judge. I had David back then. :3

Anyway, between the Harries twins, I prefer Jack. I know Finn's like this charming, high class, good looking, seductive one BUT Jack is this fun, dorky, crazy, couldn'tcareless type of person. From what I see in their videos anyway. Plus everyone else loves Finn, I'mma take Jack :p

The Harries Twins

There. Can you tell them apart?? I hope you can. :) Heeeheee. I shall meet them one day :D

Mmkay, I guess that's all for... today. It's almost 2am. Ha. My brother and sister are coming back! Yay!! The more the merrier. :) x

TESL interview :) [I'm not selected yet, this is just to keep track of my life. heh]

SO. It's been 18 months since I last wrote a blog. This is exciting. I guess my writing's sort of improved? HAHA. sehh. :p Anyway, I'm here to talk about my TESL Interview for UiTM.

To be honest, I was quite nervous about this and I really don't know why. Usually I'd be confident in things but that day, my hands were feeling cold. Hahah. Probably because I was hibernating for the past month, before the interview.

Anyway, so it took place at UiTM Sabah. Saturday. 27 April 2013. 2PM. I was so glad it was in the evening because I've been staying up until 4am almost everyday. HAHA. Ok. Really moving on.

First there was an exam. Two sections, comprehension and essay writing. The topic for comprehension was desertification. I honestly couldn't get the words into my head. Like, I'd read but the message doesn't go through. WHYYY. Idk so I spent quite a lot of time doing that. Next was essay. They asked us to write an essay about 'how you demonstrate your leadership skills in and out of school.'

Being me, I love to write, so I wrote about 300++ words but they only asked for 250. I couldn't help it. Hahah. OK SO MY INTERVIEW WAS LIKE, AT 5.45PM OR SOMETHING. Late, I know. There were 20 of us, and... each interview took about 10 minutes or less/more?? Plus the exam ended at 3.15 so yeah.

My interview went like this......... (red is the interviewers and normal white is me)

*walks into room and shakes hand*
Hi. (shouldn't said good evening or whatever asdklashd)
Hi, welcome. Take a seat.
*puts important certificates and thingsss*
blahblahnotimportant
So, tell us about yourself.
Well, my name is Nur Zulaikha, I was born on 5th October 1995. I... my primary school was SK St. Francis Convent. After that I went to SM St. Francis Convent but before I even started Form 1, I moved to SM All Saints.... ...... My interests are... I like to read books and go online.
Online?
Yeah, like on Twitter, Facebook..
So, you said you like to read, can you tell us about the current issue that you know?
Well, I know about the Boston bombing.. I heard three people were killed.
blahblah.idk. So, you were in all girls school and then went to a mix school. How did you feel?
Well, it was weird at first, having boys around me, left and right. blahhhhahahaha
Right.. You know what is TESL, right?
Yeah, Teaching English as Second Language.
Now who would you prefer to teach, kids or teenagers like yourself?
Well, I prefer to abskdlasjda.
Okay, okay *whispers to co-interviewer(??)* Alright, thank you. Is there anything you would like to share? Anything you've prepared for us?
Well, there's one thing... I want to talk about my favourite person.
Ohh, your favourite person.. Go on..
Well, actually my favourite artist..
Ohhh, favourite artist.. tell us about it..
Well, my favourite artist is David Archuleta. He was born on 28th December 1990.... I think I've been a fan of him for about 4 years already..
Can you sing us a chorus?
(ofwhat.) Umm yeah sure.. *sings S'BL*
Whoaa alright then, thank you.
Thank you! Bye *shakes hand* Have a nice day!
Have a nice day too!


YEP. I just wrote that longass interview of mine. HAHAHAHA. By the way, it's just rough remembrance. Ha. ha. BUT I DID SING SBL OMGOMOGMOGDHFJKLASD. Anyway, they'll tell us the results in three months time, after three months, if I'm not called, then..... I don't get it.

Anyway... I'm going to matriculation on May 19th. OMG. I can't believe this. I mean, this is all too soon. I'm not ready yet. Plus I still need to online moreeee. HAHAHA. Oh, I got KML, btw :D

Ngeh, I feel like writing another post just to talk about everything else. I shall do it. Soon. :D

26 July 2011. David Archuleta.

Here's some of the pictures I took during the concert, followed by my recap. :)

26 July 2011. 8PM. Stadium Negara.

David Archuleta Live in Malaysia.

Exactly a week ago.

My sister sent me to KLCC and I met Hanna, Sal, Weiyan, June, Mai, Jeff and Zaren there. Had lunch at Madam Kwan's but Mai, Jeff and Zaren went shopping instead. Lol. We went around the mall and then we're in a Sony Centre or something.

The computer was playing a song on YouTube and sneaky ninja Weiyan searched for SBL and played that instead. Lol. The guard saw but who cares? So I turned up the volume and we just watched. Hahah. After that we went to another shop and then went back to the same shop but it was another dude's song instead =_= Then Hanna and I changed to SBL again. *trollface*

Sooo, at around 3.30pm, Hanna's mom sent us to Stadium Negara. The jam was soooo long so her mom stopped somewhere and we walked. It wasn't that far, though. It was almost soundcheck so Hanna, Weiyan and June walked super fast. Sal and I were just strolling. Lol. We heard the soundcheck from outside and I literally thought it was a recording. Lol. BUT IT'S LIVE. Oh heck.

Anyway, arrived there, met Ally! She's such a sweetie! Bought TOSOD: ATE, bought the DAVIDDAVIDDAVID shirt. Lol. Hanna, Weiyan, Sal and June went in to have soundcheck session and Mai, Jeff, Zaren and I just waited outside. We could hear the soundcheck from outside!! It was so amazing. I took a video of LDH and TMH soundcheck from outside. Lol. While we were waiting, I got a text from Hanna saying that I will be going to Meet and Greet. I was like, "W. H. A. T." It's so last minute. I didn't expect I could meet him. I was so excited. Hahah. Thanks to Larissa and Steven from DASG, we got to have meet and greet!! :'D

The meet and greet was in a rush. Lol. We went in the room and Sal was explaining about the DSA and then suddenly this lady cuts and said "okay! picture first!" So we quickly posed for 2 pictures and then we all kinda surround him and gave him gifts. I didn't, though. Hanna was exactly RIGHT IN FRONT OF DAVID and I was beside Hanna. She just held out the songkok she wanted to give D. Guess what I did? I kinda said to David very loud. Lol. I said "HEY DAVID!! Do you see this? YOU MUST WEAR IT!! DO YOU HEAR ME?!?! YOU MUST WEAR THIS DURING THE CONCERT!!!"

I didn't look at him. I just looked and pointed at the songkok. Lol. Hanna said David heard me and he made this "huh? why is this girl asking me to wear that thing? what?" look. Lol. It was too funny. I couldn't remember anything else but the security guards were asking us to go out. :( Buuuttt! I turned and went to Papa Jeff with Mai, Jeff and Zaren. Jeff said hey to Jeff. HAHA. So they took their pictures and went. It was my turn to talk to Papa Jeff..

Me : Hi Jeff! :D
Jeff : Oh, hi!
Me : Did you give the gifts to the band?
Jeff : (I think he thought I said David. It was noisy anyway) Oh, no. As soon as he got to the room, he crashed to bed.
Me : Ohh mann.. (no, the band. I'm not talking about D. BUT POOR D!!!)
Me : Hey, can I have a picture with you?
Jeff : Oh, sure! :)
*pretty lady took a picture of us* No, it wasn't a picture. It was a video. She was recording! Hahah! I was recording soundcheck earlier and forgot to changed it back!
Jeff : That is why, we don't take pictures (or something along those lines)
Me : Oh, hahah!
*snaps pic*
Me : Okay thanks!! :D Nice to meet you!
Jeff : Nice to meet you too! :)

So I went out and sat with the DASG by the drain. Lol. Waited, and waited till it was around 7.30pm. Went to our own seats and then the opening act came out and performed! He was so cool. His name is Hao Ren and he can dance!! :) Soon, the Archuband came out and screaaaaamss everywhereeee!!! We were chanting 'David! David! David!' and sang a bit of SBL. Still waiting....... and then, BAM! STOMPING THE ROSES!! It was so awesome. HE CAN SING. I mean seriously. It's like, whoaa. I almost cried during MKOP and Falling Stars lol. Ooh, cried during Heaven. It was heavenly. :'D David was so energetic I couldn't keep up. Lol. He sang Crush and it ended. Just like that. THE BAND DID AN AWESOME JOB TOO!! Love the Archuband!!

Everyone went out but I was still in the VIP area. Steven started throwing drumsticks and Idk who gave out bottles and the setlist. Lol. So I rushed into the VVIP area and asked for the band to sign something! The only thing I had for them to sign is Chords of Strength. Lol. So they did sign! I got Mark, Steven and Ben's autograph!! :D We were like, "WHERE'S DAVIDDD!!" Steven replied, "I don't know! He's backstage!" Lol.

Then the security guards asked us to go out. =_= Met Hanna, Sal, Weiyan, June, Mai, Jeff and Zaren outside and I cried. Lol. Said goodbye to Hanna and Sal. I miss them :( The others and I walked to the exit and waited for David there. I met the band again! Got a picture with Ben! :D And then David came out, waved, went into the car and they drove off. Went to my sister's place and crashed. Lol.

SO THAT'S IT. I'm so happy I got to meet Hanna, Sal, Weiyan, June, Mai, Jeff, Zaren, Hazmi, Mira, Wilson, Ally, Sanjana (bday girl. lol), Schaz, Yvette, Anne, Shu Yee, Sylvia and some other Archies too! It was definitely a day to remember. The bond between us. Although I never met them before, I felt like I've known them for a long time. Really. They're like my family. No, they ARE my family. and I love them. Thank you David for everything.

Okay, yeah. This is the end of my recap. So sorry it's super long! Thanks for reading!! :)

my favourite pic that I took.
is it me or he was looking at the camera? heeee:)