Friday, May 31, 2013

Big Step. forward :)

Ah, yes... well the time has come for another post. This is an important thing for me. It's probably important for everyone else too. Eh Idk why does it matter anyway HAHA.

So yeah, I'm leaving early morning tomorrow to Kuala Lumpur. For what? To continue my studies! I got accepted into TESL Foundation at UiTM Shah Alam. I'm so thankful for that! Mainly because if I didn't get this, I'd have to go to Matriculation which I really, really, don't like. No more science for me, thanks.

Also, it means I passed my interview! heheh! Who would've thought?! I really made myself think that, oh, I'm not going to get picked because I sang David's song and I talked too fast and the written test was shizzy. BUT NOOO~~ I GOT PICKED!!! HAHAHA. Thank youuu, interviewers! It really means a lot!

Anyway, I am really, really nervous about this. What if I screw up?! I mean... meeting a whole new different people, in a place so different from what I'm used to. I'd have to be independent. Gah, that's what scares me most. Not forgetting being apart from my family and close friends. :( Ohh, and the internet too. I've been on here for like, 10 hours each day, maybe? Soon it'll be just 5 minutes a day. Oh man, Idk if I can handle this. Well I hope I can! OHHH!! Another thing! I also want to improve on my faith! This is the most important part of being away, is that I can focus on this without other distractions. LOSE WEIGHT TOO. I hope so, please, please. I just want to be healthy!

There's so many things to write about! Haha! Besides all that, I get to be closer to my relatives! heheh :D And my PLKN friends. weehoo~~ OMGGG. One Direction concert and Demi Lovato's. Yep, the only ones I'd go to. Also David's obviously but he's coming back in 10 months so... yeah. Heeheee :)

GOOD FOOD. Yess. Ok I shall leave that there. hahahahah.

I AM LEAVING VERY EXTREMELY SOON. This will probably be my last blog entry for.... I'm not sure how long.

Anyway, wish me luck please! And pray for me! It'll be much appreciated! :) Always smile and be positive!! :D

Sunday, May 12, 2013



Oh God. This is serious. I don't want to. I don't want to continue my studies. Not what you're expecting? Well, it's true. Just stop. PLEASE. I'm hurting. I honestly don't know what got into me. This weird laziness and procrastination. I'm not sure if that's what made me like this. I just don't want to. I'm going with it for the sake of life. I don't know, this is what people do, right? Finish high school then go to college then university then work and die. The norm. However I'm different. I have no idea why. I've been thinking about this since last year, even before SPM. I just think, I'd study, sit for SPM then get the results and done. WORK. But nooo, you have to continue your dang studies. WHY. WHYYYY. I'm just not that interested in doing so. Send me away, to PLKN. For two years. I don't mind it at all, really. No internet? Fine. Just send me there.

I'm sick and tired of thinking about all these. About life. This is probably my existential crisis (yeap I learnt this from Dan). Ok, this is from Wikipedia.

An existential crisis may result from:
~The sense of being alone and isolated in the world;
~A new-found grasp or appreciation of one's mortality;
~Believing that one's life has no purpose or external meaning;
~Searching for the meaning of life;
~Awareness of one's freedom and the consequences of accepting or rejecting that freedom;  
~An extremely pleasurable or hurtful experience that leaves one seeking meaning;
An existential crisis is often provoked by a significant event in the person's life — psychological trauma, marriage, separation, major loss, the death of a loved one, a life-threatening experience, a new love partner, psychoactive drug use, adult children leaving home, reaching a personally-significant age (turning 16, turning 40, etc.), etc.

Number one, three, four, five and six. Also, major loss, the death of a loved one. YEP. I know number three is just so wrong. Life DOES have a purpose actually. Do things to achieve awesomeness in the after-life. Yeah, I like to call it awesomeness. Though, here I am, still as blind as ever. See, this is one of the things that's been bothering me. I need to work on my faith. Pronto.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

wala tuition


Well, this is my blog so I can say whatever I want to. HAHAHA.

So my SPM results are 2A's, 5B's and 2C's. BAD for someone being in the second class. Really bad. Plus everyone was hoping I'd do better, probably 5A's or something... but you know what? I'm proud of my results. Mainly because I did it on my own. I went to school, I studied. I go online a lot, yet I still achieved this. Also, I didn't take any tuition at all. NO TUITION. NONE. While some other kids did take tuition but their results are almost the same as mine. I'm glad I saved money for David instead HAHA. ok bye this is all. I'm a bad person but who cares.

Thursday, May 9, 2013


HAYLOW. *Marcus Butler's voice*

This is weird. I have no idea what to write mwaaaaahahahaaaaaa. =_=

Here's a picture of my orange family during PLKN.
the middle one's called Limau Special BL7.

David's been away. 1 year, 1 month and 11 days passed. He's coming back soon, in 11 months time. I'm so excited. Can I be honest? Since he went away, I sort of have nothing to look forward too. It's like, the sun's not shining, the vibe around me just feels weird. I don't get that constant update about him like I used to. Random tweets, vlogs... they're not there.

"this is the first time, can I make it through, without you now, do the things I used to do."

But yeah, I guess I've been doing pretty alright. GAH I MISS HIM. He'll be back soon anyway hahah who knew a year have passed. By the way, I'm also setting a goal. I shall lose fats/weight by the time he gets back. :D I don't know how I'll do it, or if I'd struggle, but I will. Watch out, people. ngehehehe :p

What else... oh, I've been watching Youtube a lot and some pretty awesome British Youtubers. My favourite is definitely the Harries twins and Dan. Others are AmazingPhil, PointlessBlog, Caspar Lee, MarcusButlerTV, Sam Pepper, Zoella, etc... I know I'm late on this, don't judge. I had David back then. :3

Anyway, between the Harries twins, I prefer Jack. I know Finn's like this charming, high class, good looking, seductive one BUT Jack is this fun, dorky, crazy, couldn'tcareless type of person. From what I see in their videos anyway. Plus everyone else loves Finn, I'mma take Jack :p

The Harries Twins

There. Can you tell them apart?? I hope you can. :) Heeeheee. I shall meet them one day :D

Mmkay, I guess that's all for... today. It's almost 2am. Ha. My brother and sister are coming back! Yay!! The more the merrier. :) x

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

TESL interview :) [I'm not selected yet, this is just to keep track of my life. heh]

SO. It's been 18 months since I last wrote a blog. This is exciting. I guess my writing's sort of improved? HAHA. sehh. :p Anyway, I'm here to talk about my TESL Interview for UiTM.

To be honest, I was quite nervous about this and I really don't know why. Usually I'd be confident in things but that day, my hands were feeling cold. Hahah. Probably because I was hibernating for the past month, before the interview.

Anyway, so it took place at UiTM Sabah. Saturday. 27 April 2013. 2PM. I was so glad it was in the evening because I've been staying up until 4am almost everyday. HAHA. Ok. Really moving on.

First there was an exam. Two sections, comprehension and essay writing. The topic for comprehension was desertification. I honestly couldn't get the words into my head. Like, I'd read but the message doesn't go through. WHYYY. Idk so I spent quite a lot of time doing that. Next was essay. They asked us to write an essay about 'how you demonstrate your leadership skills in and out of school.'

Being me, I love to write, so I wrote about 300++ words but they only asked for 250. I couldn't help it. Hahah. OK SO MY INTERVIEW WAS LIKE, AT 5.45PM OR SOMETHING. Late, I know. There were 20 of us, and... each interview took about 10 minutes or less/more?? Plus the exam ended at 3.15 so yeah.

My interview went like this......... (red is the interviewers and normal white is me)

*walks into room and shakes hand*
Hi. (shouldn't said good evening or whatever asdklashd)

Hi, welcome. Take a seat.
*puts important certificates and thingsss*
So, tell us about yourself.
Well, my name is Nur Zulaikha, I was born on 5th October 1995. I... my primary school was SK St. Francis Convent. After that I went to SM St. Francis Convent but before I even started Form 1, I moved to SM All Saints.... ...... My interests are... I like to read books and go online.
Yeah, like on Twitter, Facebook..
So, you said you like to read, can you tell us about the current issue that you know?
Well, I know about the Boston bombing.. I heard three people were killed.
blahblah.idk. So, you were in all girls school and then went to a mix school. How did you feel?
Well, it was weird at first, having boys around me, left and right. blahhhhahahaha
Right.. You know what is TESL, right?
Yeah, Teaching English as Second Language.
Now who would you prefer to teach, kids or teenagers like yourself?
Well, I prefer to abskdlasjda.
Okay, okay *whispers to co-interviewer(??)* Alright, thank you. Is there anything you would like to share? Anything you've prepared for us?
Well, there's one thing... I want to talk about my favourite person.
Ohh, your favourite person.. Go on..
Well, actually my favourite artist..
Ohhh, favourite artist.. tell us about it..
Well, my favourite artist is David Archuleta. He was born on 28th December 1990.... I think I've been a fan of him for about 4 years already..
Can you sing us a chorus?
(ofwhat.) Umm yeah sure.. *sings S'BL*
Whoaa alright then, thank you.
Thank you! Bye *shakes hand* Have a nice day!
Have a nice day too!

YEP. I just wrote that longass interview of mine. HAHAHAHA. By the way, it's just rough remembrance. Ha. ha. BUT I DID SING SBL OMGOMOGMOGDHFJKLASD. Anyway, they'll tell us the results in three months time, after three months, if I'm not called, then..... I don't get it.

Anyway... I'm going to matriculation on May 19th. OMG. I can't believe this. I mean, this is all too soon. I'm not ready yet. Plus I still need to online moreeee. HAHAHA. Oh, I got KML, btw :D

Ngeh, I feel like writing another post just to talk about everything else. I shall do it. Soon. :D