Monday, January 26, 2015


Assalamualaikum. :)

One of the things I never expected to do is liking a Korean girls group. I mean, liking Running Man was alright because it is definitely entertaining but liking a girls group? Never in my whole life I thought of it. I first got to know them through a song called Touch My Body. Catchy tune, great dance moves, beautiful girls with beautiful voices. Who wouldn't get hooked? One thing for sure is that I started listening to that only song by them because I watched the dance practice video on Facebook. It was the only song from them that I liked.

Having three close friends who likes/loves Kpop made me listen to the girls more. They introduced me to other songs such as I Swear, Alone and Give It To Me. HAAAAHHH. I find myself loving the girls more and more. I ended up watching an episode of Running Man with Hyolyn and Dasom in it and also Sistar Showtime (although there's only one episode with English sub up on Youtube. Still waiting for more). It's so weird because I didn't expect to get hooked to this girls group JUST by watching one of their dance practices. Really, Zu? Just that one video could change everything. Haha!

As of now, I'm thinking of buying their album but I'm not quite sure yet. I still have One Direction's album and DVD to buy. I can't afford to collect another artist's albums and DVDs. Yes, it's my hobby. Haha! If I really do like/love/admire them, I'd support by buying their albums. I don't know, it's just how I've grown up with since Dafi and David. Being an ArchAngel taught me a lot. It taught me how hard an artist try to compose songs and make it into an album. A lot of hard work is put into making a simple album. Really. As a fangirl, I find it important to do my part which is buying their albums legally. Although I know that most of the money goes to the company? I have no idea. But whatever it is, I hope that my contribution is enough.

That is all for now. This is such a random post but I find the need to blog about my interest in Sistar. :D Of course, my bias is Dasom but I THINK I LIKE HYOLYN MORE NOW?!?! IDK. Help. I have four days left being at home. Can't wait to get back to college although I must say that I'll really miss home.


Sunday, January 11, 2015

overly attached


Something have been bothering me for the past one week. It's about attachment. I think I'm a person who constantly need company. Honestly, I am quite sad that everyone is leaving for semester break. It IS a semester break, why would I be sad? Everyone is happy that they're finally meeting their family they have missed so much. Oddly for me, I don't really miss home. Probably because I won't have anyone to interact with at home because they're all in school or working. Yep. Plus, the only company I had is gone forever.

I have grown attached to this varsity, I think. The friends here, the environment, my roommates, my seniors, the lectures, buses, taxis, the mall, the cats, the monkeys, basically everything. This is so weird. My friend said that once I adapt to my surroundings, I get attached to them and when it's time to leave, I'd be emotional. Haha. What is wrong with me, actually? I cried so hard last night because I kept thinking that I'd miss everyone. I'm glad I had my girls with me. I still feel bad that they had to watch me cry and they'd have to sacrifice their time for me. But that's what friends are for kehkehkeh. I love them.

I am so in love with the place I am in right now. I have no idea why. Maybe because I have company. I told my family that I didn't mind not going back and it was up to them if they wanted to book a flight for me or not. I honestly didn't care about not going back. Well, of course I miss my family and want to meet them again, just because I don't know when they will be gone. But still, I didn't mind not going back. Maybe because I know that even if I go back, they'll be away. I don't meet them often as everyone is busy with their own things to do. Ugh.

Yes, I know that Allah is always there. Maybe the fact that He is always there doesn't stick in my mind a lot. I still have a lot to learn and honestly, with the environment I'm in, I find it quite hard to do so. First step is always the hardest they say, and it's true. I've once talked to my friend about me having the hidayah. I was like, yes, I know everything, I know what I should and shouldn't do. But do I actually do them, avoid them? No. That's where my friend said, I have hidayah but no taufik. Taufik and hidayah goes hand in hand. Alhamdulillah He has granted me the latter but oh. my. gosh. it's so hard.

This stubborn soul. Agh. It'll change, in sha Allah. I know He's there. I know He'll help. I know He's always there, helping me along the way and He never once stopped. I am so blessed.

And if an evil suggestion comes to you from Satan, then seek refuge in Allah . Indeed, He is Hearing and Knowing.
Surah Al-A'raf. 7:200

I found this in a book I was reading called Versus by Hlovate. I could never finish that book because I don't have the heart to finish it. I don't know. I just feel emotional reading it and I discovered many things. Reading it is really an eyeopener. Omg this post is getting so long. I shall stop here. I need to reset my body clock.