Open House & Hauntu

Assalamualaikum.

I am writing this on my phone. It's currently 4.17am and I couldn't sleep. Honestly, I've been sleeping at 5am and waking up at 3pm almost everyday now. It's such a bad habit. Hope to change it soon! I tried sleeping earlier cuz I got sick and took my meds, but it wore off so I'm wide awake.

Anyway, I just finished my second semester of master's degree. I still have two more semesters to go. I hope everything will go smoothly. I will be starting my thesis now and I really hope I'd stay on track. The topic I might choose is very interesting and helpful, so yeah.

Oh, Syawal is almost over. I did an open house the other day!! Can you believe it?! I actually had people coming over to my house and served them food and drinks hahahah. I got so excited that I planned it two weeks earlier. In the beginning I only invited about eight people but it grew to about 18 people. Hahahah. I'm so glad they came. I made spaghetti bolognese and ordered some chicken rice. I even ordered brownies, bought juice boxes, made some drinks... what else... Munirah and Izzah brought burnt cheesecake! I also served some homemade cookies or kuih raya. Whew, that was something. My sister lend me her tupperware and stuff. She's so kind I could just cry. I still need to returb them asap though. Maybe this weekend I'll drop by her house. Anyway, I'm so happy that many of them came!!! Izzah, Munirah, Master, En Hilmi, Cik Azura, Shafiq, Sandra, Haziq, Engku, Ecah, Awatif, Rachel, Alicia, Vinie, Farah, Khaliq & Cik Syafiqah. Eeep!!! Heheheh I love them all ♡

Besides my open house in KL, I also did one at home, as usual. About eight of my friends came? That was awesome. Oh ya, I also went to a few open houses. I'm like so happy???? Hahahah. I went to my sister's, Azfar's, Aiza's and Munirah's. Not much but I still felt happy. Though I didn't get duit raya. Haha! But damn, I did get a lot from my family. I'm sooooo grateful. Oh yeah, I used some of the duit raya I got to do my open house. Hahahah. That's how I was able to afford things. Can you believe how expensive things are??? Damn. I am still learning to organize my spendings. Huh.

Hm, since it's semester break, I was thinking of working. I did find a place and contacted the person in charge. But.... I haven't replied to him. I have to take the typhoid injection and then list out the days that I can work. I've scheduled everything for Monday-Wednesday but I had flu and fever and didn't do what was planned. It's already Thursday 😣 I hope I'll get things done soon.

By the way! I forgot to mention about Hauntu. Hahahahah. I went to Hauntu with Azfar, Eleena, Aiman, Aimi, Nash, Kash, Irfan, Sanjeev, Azwan. It was Episode 1: The Thief. Honestly, I really didn't want to go cuz I am scared of ghosts and such. Nash didn't want to go too. So days, hours, and even minutes before we entered, we kinda regret our decision, got so nervous and wanted to back out. Hahahah. But it was all planned and booked so we went in anyway. The beginning was cool. The first half was cool too, all the interactions and the things we had to do with the characters. The following parts were interesting. But it ended so quickly. It wasn't even that scary. It was just suspense and urgency. Yup, honestly I expected more but I guess if they were to really do real ghost stuff, real ghost might come. Hahahah. You know? So everything had to be fictional and not related to the ~real ghost world~ if you understand what I mean. So yeah, because of that, I'm looking forward to Episode 2: The Tourist. It'll take place from July until December, probably. I hope to go again with the same group of people!! But if they're busy, I totally don't mind going with Nash alone or with other people.

Okay, I guess that's all for now. I think today is going to be one of those days where I don't sleep the whole day. Hahahah. If I sleep, I'd be sleeping until noon. So yeah. I'm just going to stay up and tire myself until tomorrow night.

Till next time,
xoxo,
Zue.

life update

Assalamualaikum.

It's currently 3.17am. So, life updates since I last posted here... well,

I'm taking my master's degree.

I'm an assistant fellow in my college.

I am obsessed with Game of Thrones (finale is this coming Monday omg!!)

I finally got my driver's license (like, few months ago).

I got fat, but am trying to lose weight lmao.

I became fellow advisor for PROSPEK and BETAS.

That's it I guess. but. one more.

I become isolated from society.

Since I'm living alone, and I don't have much classes, I often stay in my room. I'd go online, or read a book, or sleep, maybe eat. I can't really afford to go out like I used to. So I only go out when asked and if I can. Usually my significant other would pay for my food, so it seems like I only go out with him. But yeah, I really can't afford to go out these days. So I don't even bother asking anyone else to go out.

This made me feel utterly sad. Lonely. Truly, I felt and am still feeling alone. Because I live alone and have no roommates. Hahahah. Plus the friends I have here have their own friends, so :(

THIS SUCKS. BIG TIME.

I should probably start working, though. At least I get to earn money and socialize. But that's the thing. I'm probably scared of working. I've never worked my entire life. Yup, it's such a big step for me to actually work and earn my own money. I hope I get past this fear.

Anyway, I'll post more soon, maybe. About the friends I made during PROSPEK and BETAS. They taught me a lot and I really love them. (or maybe I just got attached idk hahahah)

It's week 12 and I have so many assignments to finish. I just pray that I get to ace this semester!!! USAHA!!! DOA!!!! TAWAKAL!!!!! IN SHA ALLAH! AAMIIINNN!!!!

bye.

xoxo,

Zue.

Say You Won't Let Go.

I've been listening to this and...... I guess this is how James feel towards Jessica.

I want to cry. My heart is :')

and his favourite line is "I wanna live with you even when we're ghost, cuz you were always there for me when I needed you most."

and the beginning of the song is "I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough."

...

"we danced the night away, we drank too much, I held your hair back when you were throwing up."

I know he drinks too much sometimes and I don't know. I feel like, this IS him.

I know he went through a lot and Jess was by him even when he was the worst version of himself.

You know, this is just what I feel and interpret through reading articles and watching his interviews.

No matter what they went through, they persevere.

moving a machine

Assalamualaikum everyone!

In this post, I want to talk about driving! My story though, not tips or anything.. just my experience.

Well, I took my driver's license test years ago but I failed at the veeerrryyy beginning and then I just got demotivated, so I stopped. Heh. Almost everyone was questioning and was upset.. but oh well, it happened. Anyway, so fast forward to now, I'm currently taking the test again since I have free time.

So my mother found me a tutor and on the first day, of course, I was required to sit for a 6-hour class about driving. I met a lovely girl and we immediately became friends! Haha. After that's done, I asked my tutor to set a date for my computer test. Honestly, I'm someone who needs to study and so I did. Haha! I read the textbook and try to comprehend everything. I sat for the test and thankfully I passed! Got my L license after that, which means I can start driving the car with my tutor around/in the circuit.

Now moving on to the real driving. Well, first, I had to learn about the RPK (Rutin Pemeriksaan Kenderaan) and RSM (Rutin Sebelum Memandu). I watched the videos on YouTube and later my tutor taught me what are the important things I need to remember and do when I undergo the test. Soon, he taught me the basics of driving, which are about the clutch, gear, gas, brake. Being somewhat an ignorant person, I have never, ever knew nor understood about driving a manual car until I learnt about it. So yeah, that was the first time I understood the mechanics of driving.

It was difficult at first because the engine kept.... dying? What's a correct word for that? Haha! I meant to say 'mati enjin' lol. But after much encouragement and tips from my tutor, I practiced more and I finally got the hang of it! However, I still make that mistake sometimes. Anyway, the first time I knew how to handle it, my tutor told me to drive home with him by my side!!! OMG. I was so nervous but he guided me well, telling me when to change the gear and reminding me about being aware of the surrounding.

I'm so grateful because he really taught me well and I enjoyed his method of teaching. He gives you real life examples and he explains things really well. Anyway, I kept going for the lessons every couple of days or so. Learnt how to drive at the S course, Tiga Penjuru, Z course, side parking and going up the hill. I learnt all these in two weeks! I still need to practice and get used to them. To be honest, I just learnt the side parking today. Haha! And I finally understood and could go up the hill with minimal guidance. I really do hope I can advance further and take QTI. I hope I will pass the QTI and then I can schedule for a JPJ test. Honestly, I can't wait to finish this!

Once I'm done, hopefully I'll get to drive around town HAHAHAH. I'm just kidding man. I don't even know what I'll do next. Ooooh, I would still have a P license for two years though. Huhhh.

Anyway, to those of you who are going to take their driver's license, all the best! Just know that you can do this, and never give up. Even if you feel like giving up, remember why you want to do this. Also I kept telling myself, "be the car. I am the car." hahahah. Please pray that I'll pass my test and I pray the same for you too. :)

Thanks for reading until the end, if you did! I might write another post when I finally get it done.

xoxo,

Zue.

James Arthur

Assalamualaikum everyone.

I hope you're all doing well. I honestly don't know who am I writing this to. If you're reading, thank you, haha!

Life update:

😃 I'm done with my degree and in sha Allah I will graduate this October.

😣 Currently taking my driving license, after so long!!

😇 Trying to settle and handle things for a kindergarten.

😍 Fallen in love with James Arthur.

Yup. That's all I have been focusing on since I got home. I honestly don't talk to anyone except my family. There are occasional chats but that's all. Heck, I don't even chat with my significant other that often. We'd be silent for a couple days and when we talk, it's just

"how are you doing?"

"good. you?"

"good."

"ok. bye, take care."

"bye, take care too."

I don't know why I find this so amusing but at the same time relieved that this works out for us. I'm just glad we both love each other so much that almost nothing matters. Does this even makes sense? I guess different people have different ways of handling things.

Enough about that.... I want to talk about James Arthur!

I knew him through his hit single Say You Won't Let Go, obviously, but I didn't bother to check him out. I don't know what hit me but around April 2018 I started searching about him on the web. I think it was because I binge watch X Factor videos on YouTube. Thus, I discovered that this dude was from there. And oh boy, I was hooked. I listened to his album on Spotify when I did my assignments and that's it.

BUT!!! When I came back home, I had more free time, and I spent hours watching his interviews and I realized I had fallen in love with him. No, it's not just his music. It's the person he is. Yup, I can't deny the fact that we don't truly know someone just by what the media presents, but I guess his honesty during interviews and how transparent he is, made me like him.

Recently, I started discovering his old music and I truly enjoy them. I can't wait to buy his albums and his book, Back ToThe Boy. Heck, I hope he'll come around near me soon so that I can go to his shows.

Speaking about shows, I'm meeting Dan and Phil this September in Singapore!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! It hasn't sunk in yet but oh my gosh. I still can't believe it. I hope things will work out well, and I do get to meet them. I bought the ticket but not the transportation/accommodation yet.

I keep talking about fangirling on here. Hihu. I hope I'll update on here more often and with more interesting topics. We'll see.

For now, take care everyone! Make the most of everyday.

xoxo,

Zue.