Say You Won't Let Go.

I've been listening to this and...... I guess this is how James feel towards Jessica.

I want to cry. My heart is :')

and his favourite line is "I wanna live with you even when we're ghost, cuz you were always there for me when I needed you most."

and the beginning of the song is "I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough."

...

"we danced the night away, we drank too much, I held your hair back when you were throwing up."

I know he drinks too much sometimes and I don't know. I feel like, this IS him.

I know he went through a lot and Jess was by him even when he was the worst version of himself.

You know, this is just what I feel and interpret through reading articles and watching his interviews.

No matter what they went through, they persevere.

moving a machine

Assalamualaikum everyone!

In this post, I want to talk about driving! My story though, not tips or anything.. just my experience.

Well, I took my driver's license test years ago but I failed at the veeerrryyy beginning and then I just got demotivated, so I stopped. Heh. Almost everyone was questioning and was upset.. but oh well, it happened. Anyway, so fast forward to now, I'm currently taking the test again since I have free time.

So my mother found me a tutor and on the first day, of course, I was required to sit for a 6-hour class about driving. I met a lovely girl and we immediately became friends! Haha. After that's done, I asked my tutor to set a date for my computer test. Honestly, I'm someone who needs to study and so I did. Haha! I read the textbook and try to comprehend everything. I sat for the test and thankfully I passed! Got my L license after that, which means I can start driving the car with my tutor around/in the circuit.

Now moving on to the real driving. Well, first, I had to learn about the RPK (Rutin Pemeriksaan Kenderaan) and RSM (Rutin Sebelum Memandu). I watched the videos on YouTube and later my tutor taught me what are the important things I need to remember and do when I undergo the test. Soon, he taught me the basics of driving, which are about the clutch, gear, gas, brake. Being somewhat an ignorant person, I have never, ever knew nor understood about driving a manual car until I learnt about it. So yeah, that was the first time I understood the mechanics of driving.

It was difficult at first because the engine kept.... dying? What's a correct word for that? Haha! I meant to say 'mati enjin' lol. But after much encouragement and tips from my tutor, I practiced more and I finally got the hang of it! However, I still make that mistake sometimes. Anyway, the first time I knew how to handle it, my tutor told me to drive home with him by my side!!! OMG. I was so nervous but he guided me well, telling me when to change the gear and reminding me about being aware of the surrounding.

I'm so grateful because he really taught me well and I enjoyed his method of teaching. He gives you real life examples and he explains things really well. Anyway, I kept going for the lessons every couple of days or so. Learnt how to drive at the S course, Tiga Penjuru, Z course, side parking and going up the hill. I learnt all these in two weeks! I still need to practice and get used to them. To be honest, I just learnt the side parking today. Haha! And I finally understood and could go up the hill with minimal guidance. I really do hope I can advance further and take QTI. I hope I will pass the QTI and then I can schedule for a JPJ test. Honestly, I can't wait to finish this!

Once I'm done, hopefully I'll get to drive around town HAHAHAH. I'm just kidding man. I don't even know what I'll do next. Ooooh, I would still have a P license for two years though. Huhhh.

Anyway, to those of you who are going to take their driver's license, all the best! Just know that you can do this, and never give up. Even if you feel like giving up, remember why you want to do this. Also I kept telling myself, "be the car. I am the car." hahahah. Please pray that I'll pass my test and I pray the same for you too. :)

Thanks for reading until the end, if you did! I might write another post when I finally get it done.

xoxo,

Zue.

James Arthur

Assalamualaikum everyone.

I hope you're all doing well. I honestly don't know who am I writing this to. If you're reading, thank you, haha!

Life update:

😃 I'm done with my degree and in sha Allah I will graduate this October.

😣 Currently taking my driving license, after so long!!

😇 Trying to settle and handle things for a kindergarten.

😍 Fallen in love with James Arthur.

Yup. That's all I have been focusing on since I got home. I honestly don't talk to anyone except my family. There are occasional chats but that's all. Heck, I don't even chat with my significant other that often. We'd be silent for a couple days and when we talk, it's just

"how are you doing?"

"good. you?"

"good."

"ok. bye, take care."

"bye, take care too."

I don't know why I find this so amusing but at the same time relieved that this works out for us. I'm just glad we both love each other so much that almost nothing matters. Does this even makes sense? I guess different people have different ways of handling things.

Enough about that.... I want to talk about James Arthur!

I knew him through his hit single Say You Won't Let Go, obviously, but I didn't bother to check him out. I don't know what hit me but around April 2018 I started searching about him on the web. I think it was because I binge watch X Factor videos on YouTube. Thus, I discovered that this dude was from there. And oh boy, I was hooked. I listened to his album on Spotify when I did my assignments and that's it.

BUT!!! When I came back home, I had more free time, and I spent hours watching his interviews and I realized I had fallen in love with him. No, it's not just his music. It's the person he is. Yup, I can't deny the fact that we don't truly know someone just by what the media presents, but I guess his honesty during interviews and how transparent he is, made me like him.

Recently, I started discovering his old music and I truly enjoy them. I can't wait to buy his albums and his book, Back ToThe Boy. Heck, I hope he'll come around near me soon so that I can go to his shows.

Speaking about shows, I'm meeting Dan and Phil this September in Singapore!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! It hasn't sunk in yet but oh my gosh. I still can't believe it. I hope things will work out well, and I do get to meet them. I bought the ticket but not the transportation/accommodation yet.

I keep talking about fangirling on here. Hihu. I hope I'll update on here more often and with more interesting topics. We'll see.

For now, take care everyone! Make the most of everyday.

xoxo,

Zue.

of the future

Assalamualaikum!

How is everyone doing? I have left this blog for almost a year now and I decided to write again. I did have some moments where I felt like writing but I just didn't bring myself to it.

Anyway, I'm now in my final semester of my degree! I have several weeks to finish up my thesis and fulfill the required courses and then I'm basically done! Just have to wait for my results and hopefully the Senate approves of my graduation!

I honestly have no idea what is about to come after I graduate. Many of my friends thought about pursuing their Master's Degree. My parents did told me to pursue mine and to be frank, I don't want to. But the thing is, I have been following everything they say. Continuing my studies through foundation and degree was all their plan. I mean, I just don't have any goals for my future back then, so I just did what they told me to do. So, I might continue doing so again now. Haha. I'll just get my Master's Degree then. I'm not sure in what field just yet. I don't think what I'm taking now is something that I like. But recently, I noticed that I kept researching about early childhood education.

Over the years, I have seen how my nieces grow. The things they learn, how they respond to things, how they simply developed as a child. I find it fascinating to subconsciously learn all these just by observing them. So, yeah. If I were to pursue my Master's Degree, I might consider doing something related to early childhood education.

Other than studies, I am also thinking about..... marriage! HAHA. It's something I didn't think I would think about at this age and at this stage of my life. But over the couple of years, I found myself dreaming to get married to my current boyfriend. He has met my family and such and my late father knew about his existence although they didn't get to meet each other. But I hope my dad knew I was and will be in good hands. Umm, so I guess we might get married some time in the next year or so? We are taking little steps like... doing this and that. Discussing how we would like things to be, collecting money, attending compulsory courses and such. So I hope everything will work out. I know God has His plans and if He's Willing for them to happen, they will.

Well, that's basically it! Those are they two main things I see myself getting into in the future. Sadly I don't see myself working. Not just yet. I know people my age have worked a lot but I just... I'm so used to being spoonfed that I don't.... work hard? I guess? I do hope to change this attitude though. I did think of working during this last semester but I didn't force myself enough to do so. Hopefully I will work, sooner or later. Another thing is about getting my driver's license. I just. Let's just not talk about it. Haha.

Okay, till next time!

xoxo, Zue.