Saturday, June 11, 2016

Of college and studies (sort of)

Assalamualaikum. :)

It's been a while, huh? I was sort of busy with everything college wise, and also my studies. Well, I did have time to write and I did think of writing but I didn't know where to start. Honestly, I don't know where to start, even now. It's just a random urge to write something. It's the 6th Ramadan, I'm in college as it is the study week. My friends have all gone home for the week. Some others stayed but yeah. .....

Exams are next week. Actually I have one paper on the 16th and two papers on the 28th. Quite a huge gap there but I hope I'll use my time wisely to study. Sometimes I just find it hard to focus to study when there are people around or when it's noisy. I can only study with music and when I'm alone. I have no idea why. That's why I usually go to the library where it's all quiet or study when my roommates are asleep. Odd, I know. So this study week has been great. There are still some things I haven't studied but yeah, it'll happen soon.

Anyway, college wise.... well, I'm one of the college's action committee member (jawatankuasa tindakan kolej). Haha. So, this session, I handle arts stuff (music, dance, anything that says art.) And so, there are quite a few big things that need to be done. It's all about the management of things, where you do your best to contribute something for the college, and also the future committee may refer to your work and make theirs better. We had Malam Anugerah Bestari and I was given the award of Bakti Seni by my college's master. It's something I have never, ever even thought of. I truly didn't even expect it. It's a really, really sweet award. DOES IT EVEN DESERVE TO BE CALLED AN AWARD HAHAHAHAH. Anyway, I'm grateful for it. Though, I must say that I wouldn't even receive it if it wasn't for my friends who were there to see me suffer every time, but still support me all the way.

Basically there are two things I need done, which are studying and college stuff.

But there's more.

There's cleaning up the things, packing stuff, managing money and aaahh what am I even saying. My life has been unbalanced. Sometimes I don't eat, sometimes I don't sleep, other times I just sleep for 17 hours a day. It's crazy, I know. At one point, I just totally lost control of my life. Honestly, I did it again for a couple of days. I suck. I need to get back on track, man. Oh well, this is why I am up at 2.30am, writing a blogpost. I have a lot of things to talk about, actually. But I don't know where to start. Maybe I should outline it first before I start writing. But that will be too much work. I like simply writing whatever that comes into my mind. Just like that I'm doing right now.

On a side note, I have someone I love with all my heart. Heehee. He puts up with the real, real me. So that's a bonus. I do feel sad for him though, because he has to handle this..... being. But oh well, the love's pure, the love's true, we'll have each other till the end of time. I'll just end this here.

Zue. huhuhu

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