Thursday, July 4, 2019

Open House & Hauntu

Assalamualaikum.

I am writing this on my phone. It's currently 4.17am and I couldn't sleep. Honestly, I've been sleeping at 5am and waking up at 3pm almost everyday now. It's such a bad habit. Hope to change it soon! I tried sleeping earlier cuz I got sick and took my meds, but it wore off so I'm wide awake.

Anyway, I just finished my second semester of master's degree. I still have two more semesters to go. I hope everything will go smoothly. I will be starting my thesis now and I really hope I'd stay on track. The topic I might choose is very interesting and helpful, so yeah.

Oh, Syawal is almost over. I did an open house the other day!! Can you believe it?! I actually had people coming over to my house and served them food and drinks hahahah. I got so excited that I planned it two weeks earlier. In the beginning I only invited about eight people but it grew to about 18 people. Hahahah. I'm so glad they came. I made spaghetti bolognese and ordered some chicken rice. I even ordered brownies, bought juice boxes, made some drinks... what else... Munirah and Izzah brought burnt cheesecake! I also served some homemade cookies or kuih raya. Whew, that was something. My sister lend me her tupperware and stuff. She's so kind I could just cry. I still need to returb them asap though. Maybe this weekend I'll drop by her house. Anyway, I'm so happy that many of them came!!! Izzah, Munirah, Master, En Hilmi, Cik Azura, Shafiq, Sandra, Haziq, Engku, Ecah, Awatif, Rachel, Alicia, Vinie, Farah, Khaliq & Cik Syafiqah. Eeep!!! Heheheh I love them all ♡

Besides my open house in KL, I also did one at home, as usual. About eight of my friends came? That was awesome. Oh ya, I also went to a few open houses. I'm like so happy???? Hahahah. I went to my sister's, Azfar's, Aiza's and Munirah's. Not much but I still felt happy. Though I didn't get duit raya. Haha! But damn, I did get a lot from my family. I'm sooooo grateful. Oh yeah, I used some of the duit raya I got to do my open house. Hahahah. That's how I was able to afford things. Can you believe how expensive things are??? Damn. I am still learning to organize my spendings. Huh.

Hm, since it's semester break, I was thinking of working. I did find a place and contacted the person in charge. But.... I haven't replied to him. I have to take the typhoid injection and then list out the days that I can work. I've scheduled everything for Monday-Wednesday but I had flu and fever and didn't do what was planned. It's already Thursday 😣 I hope I'll get things done soon.

By the way! I forgot to mention about Hauntu. Hahahahah. I went to Hauntu with Azfar, Eleena, Aiman, Aimi, Nash, Kash, Irfan, Sanjeev, Azwan. It was Episode 1: The Thief. Honestly, I really didn't want to go cuz I am scared of ghosts and such. Nash didn't want to go too. So days, hours, and even minutes before we entered, we kinda regret our decision, got so nervous and wanted to back out. Hahahah. But it was all planned and booked so we went in anyway. The beginning was cool. The first half was cool too, all the interactions and the things we had to do with the characters. The following parts were interesting. But it ended so quickly. It wasn't even that scary. It was just suspense and urgency. Yup, honestly I expected more but I guess if they were to really do real ghost stuff, real ghost might come. Hahahah. You know? So everything had to be fictional and not related to the ~real ghost world~ if you understand what I mean. So yeah, because of that, I'm looking forward to Episode 2: The Tourist. It'll take place from July until December, probably. I hope to go again with the same group of people!! But if they're busy, I totally don't mind going with Nash alone or with other people.

Okay, I guess that's all for now. I think today is going to be one of those days where I don't sleep the whole day. Hahahah. If I sleep, I'd be sleeping until noon. So yeah. I'm just going to stay up and tire myself until tomorrow night.

Till next time,
xoxo,
Zue.

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

life update

Assalamualaikum.

It's currently 3.17am. So, life updates since I last posted here... well,

I'm taking my master's degree.
I'm an assistant fellow in my college.
I am obsessed with Game of Thrones (finale is this coming Monday omg!!)
I finally got my driver's license (like, few months ago).
I got fat, but am trying to lose weight lmao.
I became fellow advisor for PROSPEK and BETAS.

That's it I guess. but. one more.

I become isolated from society.

Since I'm living alone, and I don't have much classes, I often stay in my room. I'd go online, or read a book, or sleep, maybe eat. I can't really afford to go out like I used to. So I only go out when asked and if I can. Usually my significant other would pay for my food, so it seems like I only go out with him. But yeah, I really can't afford to go out these days. So I don't even bother asking anyone else to go out.

This made me feel utterly sad. Lonely. Truly, I felt and am still feeling alone. Because I live alone and have no roommates. Hahahah. Plus the friends I have here have their own friends, so :(

THIS SUCKS. BIG TIME.

I should probably start working, though. At least I get to earn money and socialize. But that's the thing. I'm probably scared of working. I've never worked my entire life. Yup, it's such a big step for me to actually work and earn my own money. I hope I get past this fear.

Anyway, I'll post more soon, maybe. About the friends I made during PROSPEK and BETAS. They taught me a lot and I really love them. (or maybe I just got attached idk hahahah)

It's week 12 and I have so many assignments to finish. I just pray that I get to ace this semester!!! USAHA!!! DOA!!!! TAWAKAL!!!!! IN SHA ALLAH! AAMIIINNN!!!!

bye.
xoxo,
Zue.