uhh...

Assalamualaikum.

It's the second of Ramadhan already. The first day was alright. I kind of slept for few hours. Did some chores. Hm. I'm not gonna say what else I did because, let's just keep that between me and Him. :)

I honestly have nothing else to write about but I just felt like writing. I have no idea why. I don't even have a certain topic in my mind. I just want to write away. Oh man, why am I wasting my time? Meh. I have so many things to do and I still haven't accomplished them. Time is running out. It's nearing July and degree starts in September! I know how much I want September to come faster but maybe just slow down for a little bit? Haha! I still regret for wasting my time. Oh man, the things I did. Three months gone just like that. Wow.

Zulaikha, Zulaikha... apa nak jadi ni? Blegh. Meh. Ngeh. Heh. All those.... odd feelings. Haih. Blah blah blah. Bleh. Why though? Ngehh. What crap am I writing now. Oh God. I feel like I have lost. Of all months...... I have lost. Or maybe not. ASJDHAKJSLDKLASJ what is happening to me........

Zaraaa~

Assalamualaikum! :)

Nothing much happened lately except for my dad going to the hospital and such. Relatives came over so we had to clean things up and yeah.. 

Took care of Zara on Tuesday night until Wednesday evening! It was so much fun! She did cry a little bit but as long as you give her what she wants to distract her, she'll be alright. So that night I made her watch Epic and she was kind of interested but it was boring. Haha! She was searching for her parents but they were not there. Soon enough, she fell asleep. Such a beautiful sight. Late night, my sister came home.

The next morning, my other sister took care of her for a bit then I took control. Mwahaha. Anyway, fed her some food then bathe her. SHE'S SO ADORABLE. Then she ate some more while watching Upin & Ipin. She'd say, "pin pin!! pin pin!!" Oh, she loves Katy Perry's Roar and Pharell's Happy. Haha! She would sing and dance to them!

Anyway, played with her the whole day. I tried making her go to sleep but she wouldn't! So I put on Frozen (for the millionth time) and also Pitch Perfect? Just because I like Skylar Astin. haha! Soon my sister came home and yeah, she took Zara back to their house.... and.. left me there..... Zara ended up sleeping in the car.

SO.. SHE'S SO ADORABLE?!?!?!? AND SQUISHABLE?!?!? IDK. Arghh!!! Her cuteness kills me. I wish that I could take care of her all week long, minus the pooping part and the crying part. Haha! It's really fun, though, taking care of kids. :')

To be honest, I have nothing to write about so I just chose to write about her. haha. Lately I've been watching Cardcaptor Sakura, just because I didn't really watched it when I was little. I'm also reading a book about Fatimah Az-Zahra. :)

Oh! Ramadhan coming soooon!!! :D I hope that I can do my best to be better in the blessed month. Alright. Fi hifzillah. Thanks for reading if you did!

Assalamualaikum.

(btw Zara calls David "Bed" and Archuleta "Ta." So it's Bed Ta. HAHA cute)

pure comfort

Assalamualaikum. 

A couple nights ago, I had a breakdown. Sort of. I cried so hard. I felt so lost. I felt like I needed someone to be there. So I whatsapped one of my closest friends but it wasn't enough. It was totally painful. I asked my friend if I should call my other friend. To be honest, I didn't want to disturb my other friend so bad. I promised myself that I wouldn't disturb..... but I did. The pain of not talking to that person for a long time was killing me. Plus that person said that if I needed anything, that person will be there for me.

So after much hesitation and buckets of tears, I called that person. I was trying to hold back my tears but I could not. I let out everything and that person calmly listened to me and gave me advices. I felt so much better. That person told me to remember Allah. That Allah is there and what I went through that night.... well, Rasulullah got it worse. Peace be upon him.

Anyway, so we ended up talking for more than an hour. I have no idea why but at that time, I needed it. I felt so much better. For some reason, having that person there, just simply listening to me makes me happy. I know Allah is always, 24/7 there. His comfort is always the best there is. But I just needed to make that phone call. I don't regret it at all.

Alhamdulillah, I felt soooooo much better after that. I still feel guilty for stealing that person's time. Hmm. You can never replace time, you know... Huh. Okay, I guess that is all for tonight. Thanks for reading, if you did. Fi hifzillah. Assalamualaikum :)

Degree in TESL at UiTM Interview

Assalamualaikum. :)

14th June 2014, Saturday.

7.00am.

Got up and got ready for my second interview for degree. This time it's for UiTM. So my mother drove me to UiTM Sabah. Before that we stopped by McD drive-thru because it was the easiest. Had Filet-o-Fish.

8.20am.

I texted Achok and he was there already. So I walked to the rooms and Fara's mother greeted me. "Zulaikha! TESL kan? Itu nah, bilik pertama.. kamu masuk ja.. ada si Fara di dalam.." So grateful, or else I'd be lost. Anyway, so I got into the room and took the test. Achok wasn't in the room but he came it later. I feel so bad for leaving him. :/ Anyway, the test was an hour long. 10 objective questions and a 300 word essay.

5 questions based on the passage and another 5 was grammar. The topic for the essay was, 'Schools should start at 8.30am and end at 3.30pm.' Agree or disagree. So I started writing and stuff. Heh. It was alright. Later, we had to wait outside for our turn for the interview.

There were only five of us. Alex from UiTM Lendu, Cherry from UiTM Kuantan and Achok, Fara and I from UiTM Shah Alam. It was cool because we took Foundation in TESL. :D So we waited and waited. I was the fourth person to be interviewed.

11.25am.

The bell rang. I knocked on the door and greeted the interviewer. He was alone.

Good morning.

Good morning. You can place your file here. Okay, before we start, can you read these to me.

*eye test*

Okay you may sit down. Thank you.

Thank you.

So... Nur Zulaikha.. You took foundation in TESL?

Yes....

Speak louder please, I can't hear you. To be a teacher, you need a loud voice.

YES.

So where did you take it?

At UiTM Shah Alam.

How do you find it there?

Well, I really like it. It is really convenient.

Convenient in what way, Zulaikha?

Well, I really love the library there. Also there's the cafe. Quite cheap too.

Sorry?

The cafe.. they sell quite cheap and delicious food. (also talked about the bus from college and stuff)

Okay... blahblahblah. Can you do a mock teaching? There's a whiteboard there and marker.

*wipes off the board, writes 'Writing An Essay'* So today we are going to learn about... how to write an essay. A simple structure of an essay. *starts teaching*

*asks question about the structure* Okay thank you, you may sit down.

Thank you.

*asks me about the Dean, the lecturers there, the prime minister, the head of state in other countries.* Do you know anyone who came to Malaysia recently?

Oh, yes. Um, Barrack Obama?

And who is he?

Oh, the president of the United States.

Okay, good. So... *asks me about my parents' occupation*

*answers confidently. pfft.*

You have your parents' copy of ic but not yours. Where is it?

Oh, I'm so sorry. It's outside, in my bag. I am so sorry. I will give it to you later.

Okay. Give it to me straight away. Thank you, Zulaikha.

Thank you. Have a great day.

Later I gave him my photocopy of ic. HUUHHH. That was nerve wracking. I forgot that I photocopied extra copies that I didn't put the original copy with the other documents. Haih. Thank God the interviewer was kind. He's a really cool dude. Not too serious, not too relaxed. Just alright.

Anyway, I really hope I did great. It took only 5 minutes, though. I kinda wish it could've been longer. Heh. Then I waited for my brother and sister and Zara. hehe. Headed home and took care of Zara, as usual. For now, UM or UiTM, I really don't mind. I'm not sure if I'm going to go to IIUM interview, though. It's in KL! Heh. I hope there will be a session in Sabah. In sha Allah.

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Off topic. So I have been listening to Letto's Ruang Rindu. It's such a nice song and. aahhh. The message. My heart can't take this. Haha! I miss everyone so much. Oh, I have been addicted to Austin Mahone's Mmm Yeah too. Crazy. I thought the song was mehhh but it got stuck into my head.

Umm, trying to be strong for life. Heh. I hope I can get through this. Up until September. I can't wait for degree, really. Heh. I feel so meh and heh and ngeh and hilang lately. ~_~ No idea why. Dududu~ That is all for now.

Fi hifzillah.

Assalamualaikum.

Another Interview

Assalamualaikum!

Good news! I have been called for an interview at UIAM or IIUM. As usual, degree in TESL. Truly grateful! I didn't get called for UKM, though. I applied for four universities and got called for three. Wow. That is really something. I don't know how I deserve it though. Maybe Allah wants to test me. I don't know. I just hope that this is for the best. I will do my best for all the interviews and.... we'll see what happens.

Anyway, all of these interview calls have been bothering me for quite some time. Especially when it comes to my friends. Some of them weren't called for the interview. I have no idea why. I mean, they did get an interview or two but... I don't know. They seem really stressed for not getting the others. Wouldn't one interview sort of secure your place there? Plus most of them have higher pointers than I do. I just don't get why they didn't get it. It's kind of unfair and I feel like they NEED those chances. Why am I chosen? Why not them? Why don't we all get chosen?

..... why question Allah's plans? Yes, wondering is allowed but just learn to accept it. He knows what's best for all of us. He wouldn't put you through this if you can't handle it. He knows you so well, He loves you so much. That's why He's doing this. You can only pray and just hope for the best.

x.

Internet Friends

Whoopie! Another blog spot! Cuz I feel like writing! Yay!

So today's post is going to be about Internet Friends! YAY!

I think it was about 7 years ago when I first met my Internet friends. Yep. I was 12 years old. I have been talking to them for almost 10 months or so. I met them in December and wow, it was such an experience. Who are they? Well, they're Dafinites. I was a total huge fan of Dafi back then, when he was in AF5. So I went online and searched about him and found Dafi Fan Club, or DFC. I chatted with a lot of them including those who were (are) really close to Dafi. I really wanted to meet them and Dafi, mostly. Turns out they were holding Dafi's birthday celebration at KL Tower in December. I was so excited and I told my family about it. Being absolutely sporting, they agreed. So there I was, with my sister as chaperon.

Some of them. Heheheh.

The man himself, Dafi.

Moving on..... the next Internet friends I met were the ArchAngels! It was in 2011 when I went to David's concert in KL. Oh man, I end up flying to KL every time I meet my Internet friends. Hahah! Well, it was extremely memorable. I've been talking and getting to know them through the screen for about 3-4 years!

Larissa, Hanna, Irfan, Me, Sal, DAVID, Weiyan, Mai, Jeff, June.

In 2013, I met another person! He was kinda my friend. Got to know him through Twitter because I stalked him! Haha! He got in to Foundation in TESL too so I was finding for friends and checking out if there were going to be good looking guys. Haha! Found Amir Dee. He's such a cool person and very chilled although at times he can get stressed about things. Seems like a lot of girls are after him. Anyway, I met him after the placement test. He was like, "Zulaikha?" and I nodded. Haha. Not really an Internet friend but.... I guess I still got to know him online!

AmirDee, Nabila, Me and Ereen.

Another person was Sham. I got to know him through one of my closest friends, Arie. They attended the same high school, MRSM TGB. So... yeah. We got to know each other through Facebook and started getting friendly. Haha! He is a really cool dude. Full of stories and enthusiasm. I think if you give him a topic, you can actually listen to him talk for hours! Just sit there and listen. Haha. He also gives good advice and wow. Ohhh right! We met this year! Took us five months before we actually met. Haha. The day I had my UM interview was the day he accompanied me. The. Whole. Day. He gave me tips for the interview and such. Really grateful for it.

Interesting fella.

So that is all for today! It is really cool though, when you meet people online. I mean, it's like, you have never met them but only talk to each other through Facebook or Twitter and such. Over time, you create this kind of bond where you've just.... become really good friends! You share a lot of things with them and they listen. Vice versa. I think it's really beautiful. Sad thing is, some people actually lie. Lie about everything. It saddens me because these things happen. Yes, you need to be careful but why not start a healthy relationship in the first place? Why play around? Be positive and be happy.

Okay, thanks for reading if you did! It was a pleasure knowing all these people and I hope that someday I get to meet many more! Fi hifzillah. Assalamualaikum! :)

start of something new

Assalamualaikum.

I guess it's time to start anew. Nothing is really over but I guess I shall make that first step into a new life. New beginning. New me.

I have been lazing around all week, not really doing anything. Just cooking, reading, going online, sleeping, taking care of Zara. Nothing much, really. I think it's time for me to start focusing on the real things such as getting my license, cleaning my room, really strengthening my faith. Things are changing. In fact, things HAVE changed. I noticed it a couple weeks ago.

I think it's time to let go of my phone. Or wifi. This is crucial for me to start moving on with life. I was in this state in October or November last year and it lasted for months! Thank God I feel inspired now. It took only a couple weeks! Alhamdulillah. I need to sort my priorities. I shall start today! Hopefully. In sha Allah. Oh God, please guide me. I really want this.

Pray for me.
Fi hifzillah.
Assalamualaikum.

Called for UiTM Interview :3

Assalamualaikum! :)

I've been called for Degree in TESL at UiTM! This is fun! I'm looking forward to the interview and I hope I will be able to do my best! :)

So far I've been called for two interviews. One at UM and another is this one. I really hope that I did and will do my best. If I pass the interviews, I have no idea which to choose. Really. I think I would prefer it if they select for us. I don't know. IF IF IF I were to pass both, I'd be torn between two. Let's just hope for the best. In sha Allah everything will be alright.

I'll blog more about the interview after I go through it, which is in less than two weeks. Heh.

Fi hifzillah.
Assalamualaikum.