juniors

Okay so I've been on Twitter a lot and replying some of my juniors and... I just. The fact that they acknowledge me and they actually know me. Like, they ask where am I studying, what am I taking, am I coming back to KK. It makes me feel so appreciated. I truly do. I just didn't expect for these cute juniors actually knowing me. HAHA. Idk. :')

thoughts

I've been wanting to post here but I have no idea about what.

Let's see. Some things have been quite complicated for me. Things I can't avoid. Things that I know will happen sooner or later, also in the future. Sometimes I feel like some things aren't that worth of my attention but it is always there. Not leaving my mind, even for a second. I've been trying to keep my head up and brace this thing. It really is quite hard for me and also the people affected, but we try our best to sort things out. Maybe it's just the distance, so I know that when we meet again, everything will be alright. It was just a matter of time and space.

Anyway, I just hope that things will get better in time. I know it will. Nothing is needed but love, trust and attention. Although I must say that sometimes, each of us need our own space to think. I know there's a reason why we've been put together all these while. It's a message sent from above. I have no idea what is the real meaning of all of this but I know it can develop me into a better person. Not just me, also the ones involved.

I guess. That is all? I hope things will clear up soon. I honestly have never felt this way before and when I do, I'm totally clueless about it. In sha Allah things will work out.

x.

social media

September 2007. YouTube.

October 2007. Blogger.

November 2008. Facebook.

April 2009. Twitter.

October 2010. Tumblr.

Suddenly intrigued to get to know about these stuff. Everything started when I got to know Dafi. He was the reason I joined YouTube and Blogger. Facebook was my own interest. Twitter? David. After that, Tumblr was just influence from the internet. Heheh. Random post lol.

I didn't properly announce what did I get for my first semester..... well....

4Flat4David.....?

Assalamualaikum! :)

How are you all doing? Haha! Why do I pretend that I have readers? Oh well. Anyway, so, how do I say this... The results for my first semester is out. It's quite good but not what I expected. I expected higher. I expected more. But honestly, this is more than enough. Idek, that's so contradicting. Haha! It's quite average, I guess, for people like me. I don't even know what I mean by people like me. =_=

Anyway, it's above 3.0.... You know how I said I wanted 4Flat. Nope. Swoosh, gone. Haha! My friends say it's alright, though. Most of them that I knew got 3.0 and above as well. So, I guess it's fine?!?!?! I DON'T EVEN KNOW. I WANT MORE HAHAHAH. But still, Alhamdulillah. I could've gotten worse, you know?

Can I just say that.. well, I did my best. I know I could've done better but this is it. With all the last minute assignments, all the staying up, going out, last minute studying.. yet I achieved this. Alhamdulillah. Without Allah, I don't think I would be able to get this. Then there are my lecturers whom taught me a lot. I'm really excited to learn more, though. After that, my friends. They have been there through thick and thin, they have helped me a lot and I really appreciate it. :D

Wait, wait.... I got 5A's and 3Bs. HAHA IS THAT OKAY OR IS THAT BAD?! I don't even know. Ohh man. I can't believe I got an A for Islamic Studies, though. I'm pretty sure I sucked at it. Hahah! Then there's Malaysian Studies and Study Skills. Got B for them. I kind of expected it, because I honestly didn't do my best. No. I did not. Kind of regret it but it has happened.

ok. um. I just. so..... I've been chatting and go on Twitter... and.. I don't know. My results isn't that WHOAOHMYGODSOSMART, okay? It's just average. We ALL got average. Above 3.0.. Stop saying that I'm smart or something. I don't know, it's just dumb luck.

just a long one

Assalamualaikum! :)

How are you all doing? I'm not sure why am I writing here. Hahah! I guess out of boredom. Hmm. It's the 29th of October. I heard that the results for first semester is coming out on the 1st of November. Well, being me, I get so super excited to know about my results. I have no idea why. I think I just have this weird overconfidence thing where, I think I did great and get excited to know what I achieved. However, it turns out bad or average. Haha! Well, what can I do? I'm still so excited for my results. I just hope that I can get as near to 4 Flat as possible. :)

What am I doing to talk about next? Probably about my faith. So after PLKN, I really learnt a lot more about my religion and then I kind of neglect it. Then came UiTM, where I really had to learn everything by myself. I mean, my friends were there but it was really up to me to change myself. So I did. I tried to do my religious duties as.... perfect? as I can. I must say, I'm pretty much proud of myself. How far I've gotten since after PLKN. I am grateful and I feel so blessed. I thank Allah for guiding me, showing me the light. He made sure I am back on track. Also, the people I mix around with. They're always there to help me. I am really thankful for that. These people, I'm sure, will be blessed. Not forgetting someone special. Well, let's just say that this person kept me, and still do keep me grounded. This person always check up on me from time to time, making sure that I'm still on the right path. In the future, I hope, it will be this person's duty to do so, and knowing that this person is doing it right now makes me happy. This person has always told me to change, to become a better person and I'm trying my best to do that.

Next is... about.... MUET speaking test. Oh man, it was so amazing. I don't want to be overconfident, like I said earlier, but I just am! It was so much fun. I was Candidate A. B was a dude who took engineering I think? C was this beautiful lady who was already working and D was this man, I'm not sure, I think he was in the military or something Idek. So yeah, I was the youngest one in my group and probably in the whole session that morning. Haha! So I kind of helped my group mates. Since I've had experience in doing this speaking test, I kept the group discussion going. I knew we needed to get to 10 minutes and I kind of talked about all the points given. Finally, we all agreed to one point. The most meaningful way to spend your first month's salary is to.... give them to your parents. :D I was so happy because that's the only thing that I could come up with. Also, after the interview, the examiner asked where I studied and I said UiTM Shah Alam, taking TESL. Oh God. I don't know if I should've said that. =_= they might get high expectations on me. Haha! One of the examiner, Miss Georgina, I think, she said that I MIGHTMIGHTMIGHTMIGHT get Band 5. :') That was the biggest compliment ever! Why not Band 6 though? Lol. ONE MORE THING! Candidate D said to me, after the whole thing... he said, "nasib baik ada ko dalam group kami!" Haha! :') I was so happy! Still am! I hope I didn't monopoly the whole discussion though.

Woohoo! I suddenly have more to talk about. Haha! So I bought Demi Lovato's 'new' album, DEMI. Been listening to it and at one point, I spin it 6 times in a row. Haha! I pretty much memorize it by now. So happy :') I can almost relate to some of the songs. Other songs just make me want to move around and just dance like mad! Her UNBROKEN album made me dance a lot, and for this album, I do it a lot too. Heee~ I just feel free now that I'm not in college. I can sing her songs, cry to it, feel it, dance with it, and just enjoy! Haha. Some of my favourite songs are, Heart Attack, Made In The USA, Without The Love, Two Pieces, Something That We're Not, Nightingale, Warrior, Shouldn't Come Back. Okay, that's eight out of 13. Hahah! Her album is just so awesome! :) Ooooh, One Direction's Midnight Memories will come out soon too! Ahh, so much money to waste! David is coming back in 5 months! Whoop whoop!! :D

Do you realize how long this blog post is? It's SUPER LONG. I don't even know if anyone reads it. Hahah! If you do, well, please comment below! Please, please, please. Oh God, as if anyone's reading this. =_= Anyway, I shall end this post here. I might update again like, whenever I have any more stories to share. :) Take care! Remember to always work on your faith, even though you think that you're already good, improve. Be better, become the best. :) Always smile too! Hahah! :) xoxo.

trust

Trust

You can say that Holly is a very cheerful person. Everyday when she step into the school compound, a huge smile etched on her pretty face. Everyone loved her like their own sibling or daughter. No one except her best friend, Jasmine knew about the dark life.

Holly's father, Jason, was an alcoholic. He would use all the money he earned to gamble and drink. He often got home drunk and beat Holly. Her mother was defenseless. She have been suffering from cancer. Everyday Holly would cry like there's no tomorrow and then act happy in front of her friends and teachers in school.

She did not want people to know about her life at home as she felt very much ashamed. She was afraid that she would get isolated in her misery. She felt like she was the epitome of despair. Her friend, Jasmine was the only one who stood by her as Holly only shared her deepest and darkest secret to Jasmine.

Despite having a rough life, Holly would live each day to the fullest and stood by Jasmine too. Jasmine also had a very tough life as her father passed away because of stroke. The pain was inevitable but they managed to get through it together.

One fine Tuesday, Jasmine was elected as the head cheerleader of her school and Josh, the school's best football player befriended Jasmine. As the days passed by, Jasmine had been spending more time with Josh and leaving Holly alone. Holly felt isolated and confronted Jasmine.

Being caught up with her popularity, Jasmine ignored Holly and they were starting to be apart. Josh who was a writer in the school's newsletter wanted to write about a sad reality of the people in school and tried to help them get through it. After a week, the newsletter was selling like hotcakes. Everyone whispered to each other each time Holly passed by them. She ran as fast as lightning to buy the newsletter and realised that it was her face on the front page.

The title said, "Inside Holly the Happy Girl : A Dark Life." She stomped her way to Jasmine and threw the newsletter onto Jasmine's face.

"How could you do this to me? I trusted you! It was my biggest secret and you blew it all to the whole school!" she burst out, crying in agony.

"I am so sorry, Holly. It was for Josh. He wanted to write an inspiring story about your life and how you overcome all the things that happened in your life," Jasmine explained with only a tinge of sympathy and regret.

"I should have never trusted you. You were all I have and lately you've been nowhere near me. I was devastated and you're doing this to me? What are you?" Holly continued, gasping for air.

"Holly, I am so sorry," was all Jasmine could say before Holly made her way to the toilet. People were staring and whispering as it a soap opera was airing on their televisions.

Several days later, Jasmine knelt down on a bed of roses and cried her heart out. She had the trust of Holly and she just violated it. She learnt to hold on to people's trust and never again repeat her actions.

"Rest in peace, my dear friend. I still love you. Trust me," she said and went back home. Holly had a car accident and was confirmed dead after few hours of the tragedy.


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That is all! I know it's quite short but I really love writing them! I'm very proud with I've written. Haha! I hope you enjoyed all the five essays I wrote although some of them are quite.... different. Anyway, really, thanks for reading! Truly appreciate it! :) Take care!

last night

Last Night

"Rise and shine, sleeping beauty!" he called out for her. It was a lazy Sunday. The sun was peeking through the curtains, fresh air filled up the room as Zayn opened up the window. Strong smell of coffee and sweet smell of vanilla pancakes slowly crept up to Tiffany's nose.

"Mmhh.." Tiffany mumbled. She covered her face with a pillow and pulled the blanket over herself. The party last night made her tired and the after party was crazy.

"Come on, babe. I made pancakes for you!" Zayn slowly crept up the bed, laying on top of Tiffany. He pulled the blanket away from Tiffany and threw the pillow to the side. Their faces were inches apart but TIffany's eyes were still closed. Zayn pecked her cheek and her eyes shot open.

"Mornin', love," she mouthed.

"Ha, morning breath!" he exclaimed and did a half smirk. Within seconds, their lips touched. Then Zayn pulled away and went into the blanket with TIffany. He held her so tight, she could hardly breathe. They laid there for few minutes, soaking in everything that happened the night before. It was wonderful. Magical. It was anything anyone could ever dream of.

Zayn turned to Tiffany and hugged her. He tucker her silky black hair behind her ears and looked straight into her eyes. His thumb slowly caressing her soft white cheek.

"I love you, babe," he said.

"Love you too, love," she replied, smiling. Once again, their lips touched and they just laid there, forgetting the world.

"I hope we're going to have kids soon," Zayn said and they both giggled.

Idklol

It went slowly. Dripping away on my skin. Sometimes it felt so tingly but I couldn't even bother so I just wiped it away. My breathing went fast as I counted one, two, one, two. It felt so good. It was definitely the right thing to do. My energy was about to deplete but I kept going anyway. This was the time to do it. I couldn't wait anymore. When I reached my point, I gulped down as much as I could, letting myself wet.

All of a sudden, someone grabbed my shoulder. I turned around and there he was, my handsome prince charming, Oliver. He was wearing a dark gray t-shirt and leather pants.

"Oh, Mary, you're all wet! Did you enjoy it?" he asked.

"Of course I did, baby. Besides, I need to get myself back in shape for that modelling competition," I replied turning my back to him and putting my bottle away. He hugged me from behind and kissed my salty cheek.

"Rie, you know you're just perfect the way you are! You don't need to join the competition. It's not worth it. Besides, I can always bring you to the movies and maybe we can go to the gym together," he hugged me tighter.

"Oli, I need that trip to LA. It's my dream ever since I was in my mother's womb!" I pulled myself away from him.

He turned me and kissed me full on the mouth.

blinded by anger

Blinded by Anger

"Are you okay?" he asked her with full of anxiety.

"Oh, I'm fine.. it's just.." she tried to explain but the thought if it made her feel sadder and she could not bear with the news.

"It's okay, you can tell me when you're ready," he said.

"Actually my boyfriend passed away a week ago," she said, sobbing.

It was now clear why she had been avoiding Joseph. He tried to call her but she ignored it. He went to her apartment but she did not open the door. Carey had been avoiding any contacts since her boyfriend, Ernie died. Why? Why did she let him go? She should've went instead, not Ernie. She should've been the one who died.

"Oh my gosh.. I am so sorry, Carey. I didn't know. I'm so, so sorry," said Joseph. He had been friends with Carey since kindergarten and he had a crush on her but she never knew.

"Oh, it's okay. I'm sorry for not telling you earlier," she said.

"No, it's okay. Do you wanna grab some ice-cream? Maybe we could talk for a bit at the park," Joseph suggested and Carey agreed.

At around 4pm, they met at the park and bought chocolate and peppermint ice-cream. It was autumn and the leaves were everywhere. So they sat on a bench and talked. Somehow Joseph looked nervous but Carey was afraid to ask.

"You know, that night.. on Saturday. Your place was raining heavily, right?" he asked.

"Yeah, how did you know? That was when Ernie's car brake was not functioning. It still scares me. I should've been the one who drove the car," Carey said as she licked her ice-cream.

"Carey, do you know that I love you?"

"Yeah, of course I do. I love you too and you know that."

"No, I really do love you. I'd do anything to have you."

"What do you mean?"

"Carey, I liked you since kindergarten. I love you but you never noticed me. Of all guys, you chose Ernie. Why? Why, Carey?"

"What do you -" Carey was interrupted by a hug Joseph just gave her.

"Carey, let's just run away from here. Forget everything that happened here. We could have a happy family and I am going to work under my friend's company," he whispered to her ears and hoping that she would agree.

Carey released herself from Joseph and held his hand. She did not know what to say. This was so sudden and she was curious. What did Joseph said earlier? Was he jealous of Ernie? What did he meant by 'I'd do anything to have you'? How did he know it was raining heavily at her place?

"Joseph. Tell me everything. How did you know my place was raining on that night? Did you happen to be there?" she asked full of anger.

"Yes, I was there," he said.

"What were you doing there? I thought you had a family dinner to attend to," she said.

"I lied. I went to your house. I wanted to bring you on a special dinner but I saw his car. I saw you two kissing. I was angry. Do you know how hurt I was? So I went to his car and....."

--- I stopped writing. haha! What do you think happened? :)---

Missing Mia

Hola amigos!

Browsed through my old stuff and I sound few essays I wrote for my school exams and during the time I was bored waiting for the exam to be over. Haha! I loved writing, still love it but I have no inspiration lately. Hm. I just wanted to share some of the essays I wrote. :)

Missing Mia

The strong smell of salt water and the feels of tiny beads of sand on Mia Elyana's feet made her feel calm. It was a family vacation she was having with her father, Encik Kamal, her sisters, Nia Elisa and Lia Erika and her brothers, Asyraf and Andy. They were in Pulau Pinang as it was the end of school term holiday.

After three nights staying at the Pearl of the Orient, they took a ferry to Butterworth. However, they made sure that they perform their religious duties, that is praying five times a day. On the ferry, Mia took pictures along with Nia and Lia. Asyraf and Andy on the other hand, simply sat on the bench, enjoying the picturesque view of Pulau Pinang and the magnificent bridge.

Upon arriving at Butterworth, they decided to take a train to Kuala Lumpur. Mia and Lia had a fight on who was going to sit near the window and Lia ended up getting the seat. Feeling as angry (as a bird. lol.) as ever, Mia stepped out of the train. Her father shouted for her to hop on but she refused. Little did they know that the train's door would close in seconds.

Off the train went, gathering speed and leaving Mia on the platform. Her eyes bulged out for the sockets and in a couple minutes, she stood there, her eyes teary. She did not know what to do. She just made the biggest mistake of her life.

"Mom? Where are you mom? Help me.. I am scared," she whispered. A soft wind blew and she turned to her right. There, on the old yellowish wall, a sign that said, 'When in doubt, pray.' Mia went straight to the praying room and started praying. She was feeling remorse. She was the elder sister, she should have just dealt with not sitting near the window but now she rue it.

Mia then went to the information counter but no one was there as it was midnight. She decided to go to a police station but she was afraid. What if they laugh at her? What is she get lost? What is she get kidnapped? Finally she made her mind of staying in the praying room. The room had a nice blue carpet and some shelves to keep the praying mat.

After a couple hours, someone familiar came in the room, looking sad. Her eyes were puffy and her nose running.

"Lia?!" Mia half shouted.

"Oh, Mia! Mia! You are here! I thought.. I thought something bad happened to you. Oh, Mia, I am so sorry," Lia said, sobbing.

"Oh, no. I am sorry. I should have just let you sit there. Where are dad and the others?" Mia asked, hugging Lia tightly.

"They are just outside, come on," Lia led Mia to a bench where everyone was waiting, looking worried.

In a matter of seconds, their eyes lit up. Everyone went to hug Mia and teased her of hopping down the train. She looked up and thanked her mother and God.

"You know what, dad? I think mom helped me, and you too. I am so glad we are finally together again. God's work has its wonders," she said to her father.

"Well, your mom once said that nothing else brings happiness than having your loved ones near and having an unshakable faith," he replied, smiling.

Off they went, continuing their vacation. It brought them to such joy and it was definitely one of the vacation they would never, ever forget.

bored.

• 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
• Nopeeee.

• 2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
• Negative.

• 3. Have you taken someones virginity?
• Nopeee.

• 4. Is trust a big issue for you?
• Maybe.

• 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
• Like a week ago. :/

• 6. What are you excited for?
• Second semester.

• 7. What happened tonight?
• Idk yet.

• 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
• Guess so.

• 9. Is confidence cute?
• It's awesome.

• 10. What is the last beverage you had?
• Milo.

• 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
• A lot?

• 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
• Too fat to own one.

• 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
• Watch tv I guess..

• 14. What are you going to spend money on next?
• Albums, food.

• 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
• Maybe.

• 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
• Definitely.

• 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
• No one.

• 18. The last time you felt broken?
• Recently.

• 19. Have you had sex today?
• No.

• 20. Are you starting to realize anything?
• Yep.

• 21. Are you in a good mood?
• Not really.

• 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
• Yes!

• 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
• Not sure... o_o

• 24. What do you want right this second?
• Being with someone.

• 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
• Idk. Ngeh.

• 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
• Yep, never changed.

• 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
• Probably not.

• 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
• I forgot... it was something, last night..

• 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
• SO BADLY T_T

• 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
• Mm-hmm.

• 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
• Nope.

• 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
• YES :')

• 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
• NO.

• 34. Listening to?
• Demi Lovato - Lightweight.

• 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
• All the time.

• 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
• On his way to work.

• 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
• Idk.. nahh.

• 38. Who did you last call?
• Someone.

• 39. Who was the last person you danced with?
• ... IDK. No one T_T

• 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
• because I wanted to.

• 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
• Long time ago.

• 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
• Nope.

• 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
• Maybe.

• 44. Do you tan in the nude?
• No.

• 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
• Never.

• 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
• Sort of.

• 47. Who was the last person to call you?
• Someone.

• 48. Do you sing in the shower?
• Nope.

• 49. Do you dance in the car?
• When I'm alone.

• 50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
• Yes.

• 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
• Uhm... for passport picture lol.

• 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
• No.

• 53. Is Christmas stressful?
• Idk.

• 54. Ever eat a pierogi?
• No.

• 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
• Apple?

• 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
• Teacher, doctor, nurse.

• 57. Do you believe in ghosts?
• Idk.

• 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
• Yeap.

• 59. Take a vitamin daily?
• Negative.

• 60. Wear slippers?
• Yes.

• 61. Wear a bath robe?
• Everyday, someday.

• 62. What do you wear to bed?
• Clothes.

• 63. First concert?
• David Archuleta's. ;)

• 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
• Giant.

• 65. Nike or Adidas?
• Idk.

• 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
• Idk.

• 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
• Peanuts.

• 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
• 22.

• 69. Ever take dance lessons?
• Nope.

• 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
• Maybe.

• 71. Can you curl your tongue?
• Yeap.

• 72. Ever won a spelling bee?
• No. =_=

• 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
• Yes.

• 74. What is your favorite book?
• Idk.

• 75. Do you study better with or without music?
• WITH MUSIC.

• 76. Regularly burn incense?
• Ha?

• 77. Ever been in love?
• Yes.

• 78. Who would you like to see in concert?
• David Archuleta, One Direction, Demi Lovato.

• 79. What was the last concert you saw?
• David's.

• 80. Hot tea or cold tea?
• Hot tea.

• 81. Tea or coffee?
• Tea.

• 82. Favorite type of cookie?
• Chocolate chip.

• 83. Can you swim well?
• Nop.

• 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
• Yeap.

• 85. Are you patient?
• Sometimes.

• 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
• Band.

• 87. Ever won a contest?
• Yes :')

• 88. Ever have plastic surgery?
• Never.

• 89. Which are better black or green olives?
• Black?

• 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
• Nope, never. BAD.

• 91. Best room for a fireplace?
• Living room.

• 92. Do you want to get married?
• Definitely.