bored. (procrastination actually)

Assalamualaikum.

WHY AM I HERE AGAIN? Hahah! To procrastinate of course... finals starts this Monday (29th) until 14th with tons of gaps. Five papers to sit. Hah. Wish me luck. I didn't study much. I wish I did and will do. Omg. It's just so hard. Yes, all the sins I did is making the knowledge hard to be absorbed like what am I even saying right now. Currently listening to Taylor Swift's 1989. It's a really, really good album. I like it maybe mostly because of the lyrics that I can relate to as well as her voice and simply the music. Woohoo.

I am in love with her songs. I'm supposed to be studying Ethnic Relation. Lol. So much to read but I just @_@ because it's in Malay. I mean, yes, I do understand them but the sentences are sometimes tangled up like Idek you'd have to read them over and over again to fully grasp the meaning. But I guess it's just my weakness. I mean, as a Malaysian, I should probably understand it the first time I read it but noooo. Or maybe I'm not focused enough. Haih I know my grammar is all messed up now. I don't even care anymore. Actually I do and still care but WATUDU. ~_~

I'm actually waiting for someone to whatsapp me. I was gonna order KFC but Idk when is that person gonna whatsapp me. ~_~  I WANT MY FOOD. Lel. What am I even doing. I've been in my room for three days straight. I mean, I did go out for lunch and dinner but other than that, I'm basically on my bed either sleeping, on the laptop, 'reading' or on my phone. Zzzzz. I miss David. :( I miss my family. Actually I don't but maybe I do. Idek. Idk what do I really feel about my family. Lol but what I know is that I really, really love them. 

Omg I just touched my chin and I have double chin it's so ugly and fat ergh. It's just there like blegh bleh hai I exist lel. fat zulaikha is fat. ok I am not fat but I carry more fats than I should. happy?! no. obviously I'm not happy lol but to those who say that "zulaikha you're not fat", well, I carry excessive fats, that's all. Okbye. Take care. wish me luck for my finals. I need to get really, really good pointers. In sha Allah. Also pray for the victims of flood in Malaysia. Yes, it's really bad. In sha Allah everything will be alright. He has His plannings. Look forward.

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travel wishlist

Assalamualaikum.

It's been a long time huh? I'm just gonna update a little bit, just to touch on travelling. Been busy with assignments and other stuffs such as SUKMUM where I'm one of the AJKs. Another thing is practice for theatre which is Karviter and also Boria. @_@ For Karviter, I'm one of the actors and for Boria, I'm one of the sailors(which are the dancers). Cool stuff.

Anyway, back to my intention here. I'd like to list down the places I've yet to travel to, in Malaysia.

1. Cameron Highlands
2. Fraser's Hill
3. Legoland, Johor
4. National Zoo
5. National Park
6. Peak of Mount Kinabalu

I guess that's all for now? Haha. I'm truly grateful to be given the opportunity to travel to other places in Malaysia with my family. Still yet to go to the places in the list with them. However, I'm not sure if we'd be able to do so with my parents growing old and my siblings having their own family and such. Ah, well. What's important is that we're still together as a happy family. :)

Ok bye. HAHA. There's a closing ceremony for SUKMUM tonight and I'm joining the flashmob with my other friends. So excited!!! :D Pray for us. In sha Allah everything will be alright and we'll win something. But most of all, we'll have fun.

Fi hifzillah.

Minggu Keluarga Bestari 2014/2015

Assalamualaikum!

How are you doing? I hope you're fine and dandy.

Life in UM has been amazing. It did get tiring but most of the time, everything seems so much fun. Last week, we had Minggu Keluarga Bestari or MKB. I'm in Fire Nation. My 'papa' is Sufi while my 'mama' is Deqla. I also have Kak Long, Kak Ngah and Kak Cik as well as 'brothers'.

For the first night, we had an introduction about MKB, the projects they're going to hold as well as a q&a session with the college's administration. After the event was over, we gathered with our families, mine being Fire Nation. They briefed us about some things and we learnt cheers.

Second night, we had academic night. The games held were debat kakyah, alih suara, snake and ladder and... I don't remember what else. It was very entertaining to see them play the games and I laughed so hard. Oh, that evening, I had to play volleyball for my family because we didn't have enough players. Ended up winning so we headed to the finals on Saturday.

On the third day, I was supposed to play futsal but I didn't because I had to practice for arts night (?). Azfar, Adlina, Mukhlis, Amirul, Yong and I practiced the Aci, Aci, Buka Pintu by P. Ramlee. It was extremely tiring but we had so much fun! We prepared the props and our family members did too. That night, we got ready and we were so eager to perform. Well, at least I was. The moment when they saw Mukhlis acted as Aci, a female character, they cheered and everyone were laughing their asses off. Other performances that night were singing, parody and xfactor. They were very entertaining but sadly, I only watched like, a few because I was busy preparing in the seminar room.

Finally, the last night. OHHH wait. That morning there were aerobic and sukaneka as well as finals for the sports. I didn't join the aerobic and the run. I woke up late because it was raining and sleeping in felt so good. I did go down to support and play sukaneka. I played this game where we had to use a sponge to absorb water(obviously) and transfer it into a water bottle. We all got wet. Haha! But it was so fun and intense. I think we got last. Oh wells. I'll just skip until volleyball. Well, we didn't play much. Dayang and Aini played the most. Why? They kept giving service but the opponent we so weak, the ball was never passed around. So, Alhamdulillah, we won!

Okay, moving on.... that night was fun. I KEEP USING THE WORD 'FUN'!! My vocabulary sucks. In sha Allah, I'll improve. Okay, let's move on to the prize giving session. We, the Fire Nation, won.... volleyball for both male and female, futsal for female, best cheer, most uniformed family for each night, singing, xfactor (me hehe) aaaaaand.... I'm not sure what else. Haha! Alhamdulillah. I think we got about 6 hampers! Haha. Ohh, Papa Sufi won 9th for the running event while Peah got.... I don't remember but top 10. :D

All in all, MKB was so much fun. I am so grateful to be put into this college because since day one, it had been really welcoming, warm and Idk. I'm running out of adjectives to use. The seniors are very sporting and friendly. I don't know. I just love it here. I'm grateful to have a bunch of great friends too. I would totally be lost if they were not here. Nadiah, Izzah, Ereen, Adlina, Azfar, Eleena, Munirah, Ikha. So, so, so blessed and grateful. The PMs are great too. Hazel, Gra, Sufi, Afiq..... erm they're the ones I'm kind of close to right now. Haha! Closest would be Hazel and Sufi. :) Ohhh! Faiz is quite alright too. Gahhh I just love them.

Alright, this is the end of this post. Haha! It's five minutes to eleven. Okay, nanight. Thanks for reading this whole thing, if you did. Fi hifzillah.

Assalamualaikum.

(next post might be about college life? Idk)

#UMisONE

Assalamualaikum!

I'm currently in Universiti Malaya. Staying in Fourth Residential College. Or KK4, or KK Bestari. These people are awesome people, I tell you. Orientation was so much fun. It was hectic but still steady, the PM were so awesome. Idek how else to say it. Classes started yesterday and so far so good. I'm getting the hang of it. Let's just hope and pray that I won't sink in the future.

Like Mr Adlan said, "swim, don't sink." Got sick during the first day of class and oh, I was so, so weak. Feeling better though cuz people were there to take care of me. Truly grateful for them. Anyway, I wish I can write (or type) more but I have a lot of things to do and get myself used to this place. So, this is the only update for now.

Fi hifzillah. :)

still about the void

Been feeling down lately. I have no idea why.

No mood to 

- talk to people

- watch videos

- watch the television

- clean up my room

- write a blog post

- read a book

- write in my journal

- do creative stuff

- eat

- give a dang about people

Hm. Saddest thing of all is that I have no appetite to eat. I only eat one meal a day and sometimes it would be instant noodles, other times it would be some cookies and cheese. I don't know. I just don't feel like eating at all. I know it's unhealthy to have empty stomach but really, who cares? I'm doing just fine. Heh.

I couldn't careless about people too. Like, who cares. I don't care what you think or say. Just too tired of talking to people and having them listen to what I have to say. I don't know. I just don't care anymore. Although I crave someone's attention right at this moment, I keep telling myself that things have changed and.... people change too. You can't expect things to stay the way they were. Change is inevitable. Be it good or bad.

Blegh. I'm just looking forward to start my degree. Or maybe not. Haha! I have a lot of things I looked forward too but now I just feel so empty and lazy to do those things. Where did the motivation go? I have no idea. I guess I'll just have to....... pick myself up. I know I can get through this. It just depends on the amount of effort I'm willing to put. It's still weird that I hope for people to push me and motivate me. I guess I'm just used to growing up with motivation. But now, I feel so lost.

I know it will change soon. In sha Allah. For now.... Minggu Haluansiswa at UM. Totally excited (or not) for it! Can't wait to meet the admin for their Twitter account. :3 The cheers, the varsity jacket, just everything. New adventure!

I should stop now. It's 4.30am. Fi hifzillah.

Peace be upon you. xo.